Me vs. The World

Well, guess I watch Scott Pilgrim too much. But who cares anyway?

It's me, I'm back. I know, I rarely post anymore blogs these days. It doesn't mean I don't bother, I just need a time off for all the messed up things in my world. I need a day off, reality sucks.

First of all, school sucks. I mean I can't open up to anyone even though I tried and I have friends alright. I'm a little bit of an introvert I suppose. I think I'm like John Watson from the BBC Sherlock, I have trust issues. Even though my quite-new friend in my quite-new school said, "don't trust anyone at this point, start trusting when you already stay long enough to open up to people." Yep. It's almost 2 terms and I still can't really trust anyone. But my grades are great, so I'm not disappointing my parents.

Second of all, THE AVENGERS WAS F-ING AMAZING OKAY. I watched it on 3rd May when I went to Bahrain (it takes less than an hour from my city in Saudi Arabia). I was so proud because most of my friends haven't watched it yet and I was being very supportive so I promoted this movie to everyone like, "GUYS THE AVENGERS WAS SO AMAZING!!!!!1!!111!!111!!! YOU GUYS SHOULD WATCH IT!!!!!1!!!!11111!!!!!!" So basically, this is one of my favorite movies by far. The cast is just so perfect. I mean most of the time, I went like "oh why don't they use *insert actor/actress name here* for this character instead of *insert actor/actress name here*?" But this cast is A+ and I love Joss Whedon for directing this movie. And I love Tom Hiddleston.

If I have the time, I think I'm gonna write a movie review about this one. I don't think anyone really cares about my opinion because I'm quite bias about this movie, so yeah.

Last of all, I've been doing a lot of arts these days.  I can't post it right now, but I can post it in my deviantart or tumblr or just this blog probably. I'm writing this blog in my free ICT lesson and my scanner and my artworks are at home so yeah.

I hope this is long enough to post. I haven't posted in a while, I know. Thank you for reading anyway to people who cares enough to read this. I love you all!!!

Shit happens at 14; goodbyes and new starts.

Hi.

I suppose it's already a VERY long time since I posted something meaningful. I'm really sorry. I wanna make it up to all of you. Thank you for checking and waiting for my blogposts (if there's even any of you who did, I love you). Means the world.

Anyway.

On 19th September 2011, I finally turned 14. It was great I guess. I was actually excited because it's 2 more years before I turn 16. Yeah, I feel kinda old, but it's a blessing.

But, like the title said, shit happens at 14. I don't know, it's just that I feel things were going against me. When I was 13, before I had my birthday and went to grade 9, I was informed by my dad that he got a job and we will move to Saudi Arabia. I was seriously heartbroken. I mean, when I left Surabaya, after 8 years knowing all my freinds in elementary school, I left and went back to my hometown, Jakarta, because of my dad's work. It was hard enough to adapt to a new school eventhough everyone in my grade was new, and then I have to leave again and this time, it was in the middle of the term. How can I adapt to things after almost 3 years with people I have been friends with and known them personally? They were my only friends in Jakarta and then I had to leave to a very foreign and closed off country where I didn't know anyone who I can trust enough except my own family.

Goodbyes are painful, you know. It has always been and will never change. I know and believe that the only think constant in this world is change, that's why goodbyes are (kinda) normal for everyone. I guess I experience it too much and when I had to, I was already very drawn to my surroundings and never felt like I will want to leave that place ever again. I was wrong, we had to leave and move on.

So now, I had been 14 years old for approximately 5 months, had been living in Saudi Arabia for approximately 3 months and yes, I survived. I miss all my friends in Jakarta and Surabaya, I mean, I felt like I had known them for my whole life (it's true for my friends in Surabaya though) and I left them for a foreign country. But, I guess there's always a reason for things to happen. And I wish what happened to me had a good-enough reason that can make me let go things that had been on the palm of my hands for a very long time and survive something that was made from a new start.

It was great though, my new school. I had been there for a month and a half, I guess. It was quite hard to fit in and catch up since I'm a new student in the 2nd term of the academic year which made me hard to adapt to things. The school is British International School of Al Khobar (known as BISAK too). I made new friends, meet new teachers and was introduced to new subjects that I never had in my older schools. It is great and I hope I can survive throughout the years and I can reach my dreams. Living in a foreign country was one of my dreams and now, I experienced it. I hope this is a step that can lead me to my other dreams, recieving a scholarship in art/literary/movie business/music, New York, London, Paris and many more from my personal list. And I guess, leaving my comfort zone and just reach out will help me to success in the future.

Well, I guess this is the end of the post. I'm actually proud to finish and publish this post. I just realized that I shouldn't mope around for what I can't change from the past, I should move forward. I hope everyone who reads this post will feel the same, because you know what? There's always something good out there for you if you believe everything happens for a reason.

If you actually believe.

I think this is gonna be a not so long, but thoughtful post.

It's not like, I'm having troubles and anything, this is just a post that I write because I want to remind everyone that life is changing through times. I know most of you experience this, but I know some of you won't believe it.

Well, it happens.

I remember the time when I made tumblr. It was 2009 and I can't stop posting bullshits. Through out the years, I'm growing, and growing, and I grew to be a more mature person and I began to have thoughts of my own; I had becomeIndependent about my thoughts. I no longer post/reblog bullshits people think it's cute (but, I think they're sometimes gross), useless comments to attract the people I follow, and other stuff that's not my interest. I no longer try to be someone I'm not by following people's mind. I have my own mind now and I'm happy with it.

Looking back, I swear a lot of people hates me for my guts and hypocrite attitude in the past years. I want to apologize to people who thought I was extremely annoying and now, you don't have to worry because apparently, I have different interest than some of you did. I think I've proven it enough for the past years.

I know most of you regrets that you spent your childhood by wishing to be a grown up. From my point of view, why regret it? Even though you regret it everyday, you're not gonna be younger. You'll keep getting old and more memories will fill your mind. There's a lot more to experience when you're mature rather than when you were a kid.

Think about it.

When you were a kid, do you have your favorite bands yet? Were you allowed to go to concerts alone without your parents accompanying you? Were you allowed to have your own laptop? Were you allowed to use the internet without accompany from an older person? Were you even allowed to have handphones? Think again this time.

There are more years to come. Don't be afraid. There are thousands of people in the same page as you are. Just believe everything's gonna be fine. Even though you are in a winding road, there will be something worth the wait at the end of it.

FRESHLY BACK!

Hey! Remember me? I used to be http://nothingisreallypersonal.blogspot.com. I deleted that blog and made a new one! I imported the posts from that blog to this blog too. Wait, you're aware right?

There are reasons why I deleted my old blog. They're:

• I think the link is too mainstream and not creative at all.
• I wanted to start fresh. Re-do some things and make changes to my blog.
• I think the link is boring.
• I don't find any interest on writing in my old blog.
• I'm easily bored. Sue me.

Anyway, what do you think about the link? Different, huh? The idea is from Sherina Munaf's Singing Pixie. But, I changed the 'pixie' to 'pixel'. The meaning of the link is:

1. Singing: I love music. I use the phrase 'singing' to show how much I love hearing people sing or how much I love singing.
2. Pixel: I'm a fan of photography. I know pixels are connected to photography, so, yeah.

Today, Simple Plan's newest album-called Get Your Heart On!-was released. Excited! Jet Lag is one hell of a single. Can't wait to hear the whole album!

I guess that's the end of this post. Please subscribe and keep reading! Thank you so much! :D

-Gee.

"What's the worse that I can say? Things are better if I stay."

Hey.

So, as you all know I love My Chemical Romance. I just saw this video a few moments ago. I know it's late that I post this, 'cause this happened months and months ago. I just wanna share it to you guys. Watch first. Please do enjoy this. I give you: My Chemical Romance - Helena (Live Acoustic at 98.7FM Penthouse.

What do you think? Awesome right? It's so freaking beautiful, I almost cried. Seriously. I think this version of Helena should be recorded. This is so beautiful. So beautiful.

Anyways, that's all I wanna post. That's all I wanna share. Sorry for taking your time only to show you this video. But, I can't help it. I need to show you. This is one of the reasons I'm getting more and more in love with this band. Thank you!

Facebook? More like, I'm-done-with-this-thing!

Liat kan judul post ini? Yap, sekarang gue mau ngebahas soal Facebook, sebuah fenomena dunia. Walaupun begitu, pamornya mulai menurun, mengapakah begitu?

(Pertanyaan di atas memang rada stupid. Ya pasti liat lah, mana ada orang buta bisa liat hal hal yang ada di layar komputer ya nggak? Kecuali lu mau bikin layar dengan sistem braille, pasti akan sangat membantu para orang buta untuk memiliki wawasan yang lebih luas terhadap dunia. Iya iya, gue tau gue sok bijak.)

Back to masalah Facebook.

Facebook adalah fenomena dunia. Penggunanya aja dari kutub utara sampe kutub selatan. Gue sempet tergila gila banget sama situs sosial ini.

Jujur, gue paling nggak tahan ngeliat gadget baru or something related to the internet. Kayak BlackBerry nyokap gue, yang sering mainin malah gue bukan yang punya. Terus bokap pulang dari kantor bawa kamera SLR, gue langsung girang sampe loncat indah dari lante 5 gedung WTC. Yang sekarang gue lagi aktif, Twitter (@gitadeux), gue update terus statusnya apapun caranya. Diem diem beli pulsa tambahan (thanks to mbak yang udah ngebantuin gue beliin pulsanya pake duit jajan seminggu gue), minjem hape nyokap tanpa bilang bilang, sampe buka website unblocker di perpustakaan sekolah (sekolah gue emang strict. Semua situs jaringan sosial diblock dan sumpah, that's freaking annoying). Tapi gue udah mulai jarang ngelakuin itu. Kalo ketauan sama Ms. Mariza, gue bisa didamprat habis habisan. Dia vice principal sekolah gue dan beliau kenal sama gue. Nanti kalo ketauan pasti diomelin gini;

"You're a Student Council officer. Why don't you give a good example for your friends? WHY DON'T YOU GIVE A FREAKING GOOD EXAMPLE FOR YOUR FRIENDS?" *banting meja*

Oke. Ganas.

Nah, back to Facebook.

Jadi kita tau gunanya Facebook sebagai situs jaringan sosial. Mendekatkan yang nan jauh di mato (tapi menjauhkan yang dekat. Trust me, it really does).

Fact: This thing is great for stalking. Guaranteed.

Sebagai situs sosial, situs ini memiliki beberapa keunggulan dibanding situs situs sosial lainnya. Seperti quizes, games, interviews and fan pages. This is one of the example of the applications I've mentioned, an application so called Friend Interview;

Watch what you're writing. They ended up being killed by me. JK though.

Saat pertama tama, Facebook looks so simple and easy to use. But now? NO. BIG NO. HELL NO. YES, NO. Sekarang semuanya jadi membingungkan. Bukan cuma karena toolbar situs ini pindah2 mulu, juga banyak anonymous applications yang ngebajak profile manusia manusia yang tidak bersalah. Padahal mereka nggak berhak ngebajak walaupun pengguna application nya memperbolehkan. Itu tindak kriminal!

Dulu, kita cuma bisa nge-like photos, posts and statuses. Sekarang? We can like the comment loh! Dear Mark Zuckerburg, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING? I mean, liking a comment is not appropriate. We comment or like a status or a post or a photo because we do like them or just giving some reviews about those stuff. Seriously (gue serius banget ya, padahal gue juga pernah nge-like comment. Dasar anak goblok lu git). I wrote a status this morning, and that's what I'm talking about;

...dan gue pun terharu bahwa yang nge-like commentnya bukan nyokap gue.

Nge-like post itu cuma bikin notification tambah banyak. Hal inilah hal yang paling annoying. E-mail terus terusan dateng ke inbox yahoo gue dan rekornya, ada 2000 e-mail dari Facebook cuma untuk mengingatkan gue kalo notification profile gue udah banyak banget. Stress.

Sebenernya bukan cuma itu alesan gue kenapa profile Facebook gue sepi kayak kuburan, tapi gara gara banyak alay mulai menjajah Facebook. Ngga bohong. Ada beberapa temen gue yang alay nge-add gue. Nggak enak kan, ignoring a friend request from your old schoolmate? Kesannya kita ngga peduli sama dia. Walaupun alay dia juga temen kita. Pada akhirnya gue dengan berat hati accept friend requestnya.

Yang sering gue bingung, adalah anonymous people yang punya banyak mutual friends ke gue. Gue aja nggak kenal, kenapa mutual friendsnya banyak sekali? Apa gara gara cuma pengen nge-add gue as their friend, supaya diterima mutual friendsnya dibanyak banyakin? Repot amat ya. Perasaan gue nggak eksis eksis ini (GR abis ya gue).

Most of all, people is on Facebook to show other people kalo mereka itu 'gaul'. But they're fakes. Fake. Fake. FAKE. Even, ada orang yang mau ngebuat status gini saking keselnya sama fakers;

I got this picture from Tumblr. I totally agree with this. I want everyone to see it.

Sadarlah kalian yang masih aktif sama Facebook tentang hal hal yang gue tulis di atas. If you're a faker, stop faking everything and be yourself. Jelas jelas gue nulis ini buat kebaikan kalian semua. Maaf kalo dari pertama post diselingi jayusan tapi terakhirnya...

Gila. Gue pegel nulisnya. Maaf kalo ada salah salah kata dan maaf kalo tiba tiba ngga nyambung (maafin dong, lebaran ini). Thanks ya udah ngebaca post post gue yang nggak penting penting banget. Thank you so much! xoxo (yang ini gue bercanda. I'm not a kisser dan nge-hug orang pun jarang hehehe) :]